I am gonna leave and I don't think I realize it yet.

I have not realized I am going to spend one year away from everything: my sister, my parents and my friends. they are not just buddies, now I know them for more than 10 years, we have spent each day together for 3 years now.

I will be alone in a unknow place with perfect strangers.

For the moment I do not fear, I do not think about it in fact.

I am in a nostalgic mood, I think I miss Kwamé a guy I 've met in Paris, that I saw back in Amsterdam. No in fact I only miss tenderness and love. And it will not come from him. I ve been dating lots of guys latley, I had lots of fun, but at the end the thing you miss in reality is not sex but love. It sounds too romantic for me. I am in really melancolic mood, a sweet sadness, le spleen, this sweet empty melody . Unable to think, realise I just feel a bit sad.